Yeah...

I don't think I can catch up at this point with my p52.  I will start taking pics again, but it got out of control with all of the sickness going around the house.  I think we are all finally on the mend, but who knows how long that will last.

So the day we had been dreading as far as the Navy goes came and went, Andy is officially not a nuke and not on subs anymore.  Now we wait to see if he can cross rate to do something different, but it is looking more and more like he will be forced out. I still can't believe this is happening and I am sick about it.  As much as Andy acts tough, I know he is in shock and hurt about it too.  It hurts to know that I can't help him, even as much as I want to. It's really hard not to be bitter, and it is really hard to think about that not being our life anymore.

For now we are enjoying our time together, and we are trying to plan for our future.  It is hard when we have no idea what is going to be decided next.  All we know is that we are leaving it up to the Lord and praying with everything in us he will help us get through it.  Maybe we just didn't have enough faith and we needed this trial to get back on track.  I just don't know.

As for me, I have been getting quite a few photo sessions booked and it is wonderful for me.  So therapeutic and relaxing for me, it really gets me to de-stress. Another reason it is great having Andy home, he is able to watch the boys so I can go and do that.  Thinking about what I want to do in the future, I know my photography will be a part of it, but I do really want to become a nurse practitioner and hope to practice in an OB setting.  I would really love to do L&D, but we'll see.

Adrian is wrapping up his swimming lessons, and boy what a huge change in him since he started!  He swims underwater and has no fear of jumping off the side of the pool to me. I love that he is so brave, but also that he knows to stay with me.  I am so proud of him!